11 May 2009, 9:14 pm
I don't know what to do.. I've got too much to deal with, my temper is getting worse, and I'm breaking down.. Thing's in my life I'm having trouble balancing: -I'm 18. -I need to find a job.. -I barely have a career plan after college, -School is killing me, -I fucked up in the past, so I have to take an extra full year of highschool, including summerschool this summer... -I'm trying to improve my artistic ability but never find time to draw. -I want to return to my Muay Thai classes, -I try to work out just about everyday, but lack motivation and time a lot.. -I paintball, and want to take more time investment into it.. -I have many good friends whom I can only come in contact with over videogaming which i barely get time for. -My mom nags at me everyday about stupid shit. -I'm deeply in love with my girlfriend, and it goes both ways. I love spending time with her, and she's the only thing that keeps me sane, but I'm afraid of cutting too much of our time together, and I feel my stress has caused me to not treat her as well as I should. We have the luxury of being able to be together every day. -People piss me off, and I've taken a lot of shit from people recently, and my age has prevented me from being able to really do anything about it. I'm sure there are many other factors here that I can't think of at the moment, but you get the point.. I don't know what to do.. I need to relieve stress, or have a good time-management plan for my activities. What do you all think of this? Any suggestions? I'm tired of pretending im okay, or that im happy with the way things are. I want to feel that way for real, and to show my girlfriend that too, before it damages our relationship. I'll update with more points of stress later if I think of more.... Read More »
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